If you don't want to hear me complain, then by all means steer clear of this post. The complaining herein may prove to be emotionally harmful...or you may just want to kick me in the pants and tell me to get over it. One or the other.
My mom always told me that if I couldn't change the situation, then I must change my attitude. Well what if I can change the situation, but I'm just not sure how? Am I allowed to have a sorry attitude then?
Everything about which I have an awful attitude are interconnected. It is an ongoing battle between the same circle of events and problems, and the solution to this circle of doom would be to step out of the circle completely. But, if this circle is life...then I don't really want to step out of it. I'm not so certain that the end of the circle of life would make things any easier, in fact, I might have more problems with being dead than being alive. So we can scratch out the option of leaving the circle. However, the circle of which I speak is probably not the over-encompassing circle of my life, but rather a small gear in the entire clock-work of my life...which is the clock...ever ticking...and tocking...like a clock does...
So my life's specific circular gear at this moment is this state of college student/unmarried (and not dating anyone)/antisocial/jobless/battling resolutions/lack of sleep/freezing to death/general desire to do absolutely nothing (laziness?)-dom.
Because I am in college, and constantly doing homework, this leads to:
A. Being antisocial.
B. Leaves very little time to hunt for jobs.
C. Leads to a severe lack of sleep.
Now this lack of sleep results in:
A. Being dateless because I look like a frizzy-haired troll.
B. Not wanting to date because I have nightmares about getting married to boys I don't want to marry.
C. Lack of concentration and ability to function at school.
D. Desire to do nothing but sleep.
E. Loss of ability to wake up in the mornings to run (which makes me feel good) and to study my scriptures (which also makes me feel good).
Because I live in a frozen tundra:
A. My skin is as tough and cracked as a fossilized dinosaur. Which adds to my already quite attractive "frizzy-haired troll" appearance.
So there you have it, the wonderful workings of the gear on which I live.
My mom always told me that if I couldn't change the situation, then I must change my attitude. Well what if I can change the situation, but I'm just not sure how? Am I allowed to have a sorry attitude then?
Everything about which I have an awful attitude are interconnected. It is an ongoing battle between the same circle of events and problems, and the solution to this circle of doom would be to step out of the circle completely. But, if this circle is life...then I don't really want to step out of it. I'm not so certain that the end of the circle of life would make things any easier, in fact, I might have more problems with being dead than being alive. So we can scratch out the option of leaving the circle. However, the circle of which I speak is probably not the over-encompassing circle of my life, but rather a small gear in the entire clock-work of my life...which is the clock...ever ticking...and tocking...like a clock does...
So my life's specific circular gear at this moment is this state of college student/unmarried (and not dating anyone)/antisocial/jobless/battling resolutions/lack of sleep/freezing to death/general desire to do absolutely nothing (laziness?)-dom.
Because I am in college, and constantly doing homework, this leads to:
A. Being antisocial.
B. Leaves very little time to hunt for jobs.
C. Leads to a severe lack of sleep.
Now this lack of sleep results in:
A. Being dateless because I look like a frizzy-haired troll.
B. Not wanting to date because I have nightmares about getting married to boys I don't want to marry.
C. Lack of concentration and ability to function at school.
D. Desire to do nothing but sleep.
E. Loss of ability to wake up in the mornings to run (which makes me feel good) and to study my scriptures (which also makes me feel good).
Because I live in a frozen tundra:
A. My skin is as tough and cracked as a fossilized dinosaur. Which adds to my already quite attractive "frizzy-haired troll" appearance.
So there you have it, the wonderful workings of the gear on which I live.
"When you find out who you are, you'll find out whatcha need; blue skies and sunshine are guaranteed!"
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So this is the life of a byu provo student? . . .hmmmm. hahah, technically you should not be so "frizzy" in our dry state. The lack of humidity should be a blessing!
ReplyDeleteAw, man! That's the pits. Spring will come, though, and things will get better! But for now, just know you have a whole lot of people who love you even in your frizzy, cracked state. And I'm not frizzy, but I'm sure cracked! ;)
ReplyDeleteKelly, we should move back to Arizona. I am right with you when it comes to cold! I hate it. Lets go to AZ where it is warm all th time!
ReplyDeleteArizona is warm Katelyn? Sorry but 22 below zero isn't warm. Ha ha! It snowed again yesterday and it still hasn't melted the snow that was here when you were here for Christmas.
ReplyDeleteThere are things you CAN change Kelly! Focus on what matters most. Read or listen to Pres Uchtdorf's conference talk. "Some people criticize and belittle themselves...Learn to see yourself as Heavenly Father sees you--as His precious daughter with divine potential." Do your best! You can do it! Love ya!
Kelly I think you are doing simply amazing!!! You will figure everything out, I promise. Just trust in the Lord and everything will work out how it's supposed to. Remember the story I told you the other day. No one knows at this age exactly what life will bring or what they're supposed to do. Actually no one any age knows!! So just have a little faith, take it one day at a time. Breathe in and out. And try and get some more sleep!!! lol
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